Pieces

I don't really understand what's going on right now. It's like i make a decision for my life and i'm content with it and it seems like i'm ready to stop stressing over it for the moment but then bam something comes up and it crashes over me once again. I told my mom that i was going to stay on with swimming through championship season in April so i can have two tapers and swim ready for high school states and win the 500 this year. Well, i was set in that and i was happy, but then today happened.
Let's flesh out this story a bit. We have two sites on our team: Lifetime Fitness on Six Forks, and Lifetime Fitness in Cary. Well our coach is Scott and, when he's not able to come to practice, we get the Cary coach. I'm open to new people, i promise i try, but this man talks down to us like we're two and nearly gave me an asthmatic attack in the middle of practice because he kept sending me too quickly and not giving me enough time to catch my breath. No. That just doesn't fly in my book. Scott's mean and stuff but to a good degree to kick our butts into action. This guy just writes down practice and says "go do it all now" while telling us his life story when we're trying to get some little bit of rest.
On to the point. Scott got "fired" today to go to this other no-name team who has no pool but apparently is going to build us one. We start taper (doing less and less yards before a meet) next week and we have a big meet in Virginia in December that we're training for. We don't have a pool or, technically, a team. All my friends are really a big reason i haven't quit the sport yet, but they say they're following Scott to this new "team" while my mom is making me stay on with lifetime (basically alone) with this Cary coach who, quite frankly, is lucky to have survived practice monday i was so angry at him.
I knew i was probably going to quit in April but i was so pumped for December and then April with our big meets but now my life is slowly crushing because mother wont let me move teams again and...i don't know. Needless to say i have a research paper i have to write, tests i need to study for, and a NaNoWriMo begging to be written and i have no abilities to comprehend work at the moment. Thanks Scott and whoever else. thanks for making me miserable once more.